Wednesday, June 01, 2005
why i am doing this?
before i go on with this blog, i've decided to use small letters. if you can't stand it, tough. lol.
2 blogs ago, i posted a question: why do i persist in doing things younger people effortlessly do? is it my refusal to age? esep esep me. why nga ba?
everytime i attend a reunion of classmates or a finex meeting or a rotary meeting and i see a bunch of people that are either older, slightly younger or about my age so out of shape with potruding bellies or lined faces with wrinkles, i get a kick of strutting my better physique. i also get an ego boost when i can keep up with younger people 20, 15 or even 10 years younger. An even bigger ego boost is that when younger yummy guys start noticing you, flirting with you and evenutally having sex with you without the need to exposing your wallet. that just confirms that you have that "asim" taste yet! lol.
I've had sex with guys in their teens (18, 19 and not lower than 18) or early to mid 20's. Sometimes in the middle of all this sex, I suddenly realize that these young guys are young enough to be my sons! And they are the ages of my nephews! maybe that's why i do all these things like working out, running, biking, mountaineering and scuba diving. its not really the sex but the realization that you can still do things in your mid forties.
i figured i still have a good 10 more years before i stop doing these things. but i am so scared to stop because i have this vision of aging very very rapidly, almost like a melt down if i stop. lol. oh well, if i ever did stop and start to age there is reliable visa and master card.
i just hope i'm filthy rich to buy the nice looking guys. and viagra and cialis. lol.
2 blogs ago, i posted a question: why do i persist in doing things younger people effortlessly do? is it my refusal to age? esep esep me. why nga ba?
everytime i attend a reunion of classmates or a finex meeting or a rotary meeting and i see a bunch of people that are either older, slightly younger or about my age so out of shape with potruding bellies or lined faces with wrinkles, i get a kick of strutting my better physique. i also get an ego boost when i can keep up with younger people 20, 15 or even 10 years younger. An even bigger ego boost is that when younger yummy guys start noticing you, flirting with you and evenutally having sex with you without the need to exposing your wallet. that just confirms that you have that "asim" taste yet! lol.
I've had sex with guys in their teens (18, 19 and not lower than 18) or early to mid 20's. Sometimes in the middle of all this sex, I suddenly realize that these young guys are young enough to be my sons! And they are the ages of my nephews! maybe that's why i do all these things like working out, running, biking, mountaineering and scuba diving. its not really the sex but the realization that you can still do things in your mid forties.
i figured i still have a good 10 more years before i stop doing these things. but i am so scared to stop because i have this vision of aging very very rapidly, almost like a melt down if i stop. lol. oh well, if i ever did stop and start to age there is reliable visa and master card.
i just hope i'm filthy rich to buy the nice looking guys. and viagra and cialis. lol.
